Why am I always burning?
I am burning. I am always burning. Every evening, after the rush and thrill of the day has passed, I often start getting my depression back. Earlier I used to think it is because of the hardship I am in; the poverty, expectations, failures or even my s-drive. Things are getting better with time; the poverty is being irradicated by my new job which I like and pays me decent amount of money. The expectations are getting fulfilled; again because I have a job and I am able to fulfil needs of myself and my family. The weight of my failures is reducing as I am getting better at my job and as I am becoming a bit better than how I used to be. My s-drive is the last thing which I need to over come and I am trying since a lot of years but there are mixed days. It is really difficult for me to get rid of this but I won't stop till I become better at this too! Yet, I am always burning. My past still haunts me. The ghost of being let go because of not being able to meet often; not being tall